Monday, March 31, 2008
End of trials :(
Bonjour, mon amie!
In a way, I feel as though I kept avoiding the fact that trials are over. I'm so nervous for my results and yes, I know that I did a horrible thing today. I mean, instead of going to check on my provisional entries...I avoided going into the office. I'm bloody scared of facing the music, so right now I'm just turning my head away. I'm afraid of my parents judging me, telling me I didn't study and provisional entries not being excepted. I'm really really really scared.
I'm praying that I do well, seriously. So yes, like I was saying, apart from my exams, my life has been pretty mellow recently. Apart from today...like for example, for the first time in ages, I went out. But like, I went out for lunch with Manual and Dina who were totally pigging out at Paddington's House of Pancakes.
Aww....Every time I see the word Paddington, I keep thinking about the awesome bear. <3.
JULIAAA IS NERVOUS!
Random...weird...Okay back to the thing, we had like this overly sweet thing [dina and I], and Manual ordered some burger which was beyond delicious. We're such disgusting pigs... But then, the one thought that's keeping me going.
FRANCE!!
Sorry, Elizabeth Rocha, but I still think there's something great to look forward too.. Nothing about love or whatever, but just life.
Some minor explosion :)
I love to love.
Julia loves peace.
xoo
5:13 AM
Sunday, March 30, 2008
People, pleaces and lives.
Oh my Lord...France!!
I know I shouldn't really be excited at this point of time but I truly can't help it. I mean, I really want to do well for my o levels and everything, but seeing Anouk, Mostafa, Pedro, Frederik, Clara, Hans, Sarah, Sussanah, Paarma, etc leave and the fact that I'm always left behind is shit. And now, I get to leave...I mean, I can't help but feel ecstatic. I mean, wouldn't you?
French, the language of Romance isn't exactly looking friendly to me right now, with all the grammar and the proverbs. Freaking bloody hell, how on earth am I going to survive IF I go there.
God, how pitiful, the big IF still plays an important part in my role as a student.
I'm filling up the mindless pages of the application forms right now and I truly can't think of what I should right. Uhh "oh wow, my family and friends like love me", blonde much? And apparently, if I go to school there, I'd be in year ten, aaargh, how sad is that, I've just left Malaysia as a graduate and yet I return as a student.
Saaaad.
this is what the website for AFS France says;
"Classe de Seconde (10th grade) This is the first year of high school. Compulsory subjects : French literature, two foreign languages, history and geography, maths, physics and chemistry, biology, economics, sports. "
NOOOOOOOOOOOO!
represent Malaysia yo !+
as you can see, I'm starting to feel the French feeling.
Julia loves you.
xooo
4:50 AM
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Surpression.
Within the years I've been alive, I've realised that there is more to the world that one really sees.
I mean, no shit Sherlock?
So as we grow older, we begin to understand how the world and its inhabitants really work. Everyone talks about racial equality and unity but where do we see it? In my last post, I somehow insulted the government but as I ponder deeper into the situation. I begin to understand that the world doesn't really revolve around the things that matter. I mean, we are such small beings compared to the rest of the universe, and yet we choose to bicker about not being equal. There are so many races in this world. Truly what makes us different from any other? We have different exterior characteristics, but look deeply, we are all the same.
WE HAVE THE SAME BLOOD !
In Malaysia, we talk about unity and equality within the races. We have three different races; Malay, Indian and Chinese..Such a small amount of different cultures and yet we still argue. We talk about how the Malays' always receive opportunities and other races don't. As much as I hate to admit it, its true. I do understand things from the Malays' point of view... I mean they don't want another May 13th Riot to occur.
But at least give everyone the right to freedom of speech?
Julia wants peace. xoo
5:11 AM
Friday, March 28, 2008
Saturday morning with nothing to do.
Hello hello again.
Its Saturday and I have absolutely nothing to do. Extremely bored. Hmm hmm, maybe I should study for Malay, or maybe I should not. Hehehe! Yes anyway, I'm very bored right now and I'm not as emo as I was yesterday. Yesterday was a real bitch, I mean, helllooo? I have feelings too!
I got accepted to go to France!! Woot woot! *joy dance* I mean, I haven't told the gang yet, I hope they'll like feel proud of me. But like, I don't want to leave them, I mean, can you imagine life without Clarissa's phone calls, or Auleep's laaaame pick-up lines ;).
I'm doing my little rock and roll dance right now, in the chair.
I rock :)
Listening to ; The Seeds by The Roots.
Oh another important factor that I would love to talk about, since nobody listens would be the state of our government right now. I mean, what the hell right? Only after elections, the government begins to 'pretend' to care. I mean, Barisan Nasional? You call yourself a democratic government and yet your Prime Minister gives all the important positions and opportunities only to people that are somehow related to him? I mean, how much corruption is present in our government. And what's with the inequalities within the races? I mean, its bloody sad to see all the opportunities only given to the Malays [I'm a malay]. I mean, can't we have equal rights among everyone. Its so bloody unfair that life is this way. I mean, we're all equal. We have the same blood, the same bones. Just because our skin colour, it doesn't make our blood any redder or our bones any whiter?
I see the government screwing up everyone. I mean, who are we in the world? Why is there so much corruption? Is this the country that you want to say "I'm proud of being Malaysian", God damn it Malaysia, try to think of the people here. Why do you think everybody wants to runaway to another country? It's because of the system of it all...
think twice about life.
peace. love. anarchy.
Julia.
8:13 PM
Mr. New Blog
Hello, dearest Life,
I'm in a explicit state of boring-staringoutintonothingdom-euphoria.
Its been ages since I've last written here, so excuse me for my lack of vocabulary in all things, after all, what can you expect from a girl like me. Anyway, an update on my life you say, well, I'm in Year. 11 A now and I'm almost graduating. Totally shocking, isn't it? I mean, little-big-Julia almost growing up now. It almost brings tears to my eyes. Omfg! Emo, much? Looking back at my old blog posts, I mean, it just reminds me of how attention seeking I was, and I truly almost pity myself for it. I really really really miss acting like a child...I mean, life is getting all serious now, its like, the average topic for our conversations now days are like "which college are you going into?" and "what kind of course will you take?". I mean, its hard enough we're all letting each other go, but exams. God, exams.
I had my trials exams recently, correction, I'm having my trial exams right now. My last paper is on Monday and its Malay. So yes. I feel like its not okay for me to feel relaxed because if I fail, my parents would feel disappointed with me and my results.
And they'll just act psycho. God, I'm really scared now. I mean, I know I'm not like Clarissa or Auleep or Jack, but hey? I'm still slightly above average, I like to think so. So yes, about my life...
its driving me mad, but I have to, I have to grow up.
Julia Elyza
From the left ;
Alex, Vinod, Clarissa, Nadzir, Jose, Grace, Jack, Thao, Me, and Auleep
From the left :
Kristian, Vinod, Auleep,Me, Japna, Shameet, Jack, Ofeaa, Nasreen, Tze Yang, Clariss, Lara, and Johan.
5:00 AM
represent Malaysia yo !
as you can see, I'm starting to feel the French feeling.
From the left ; Alex, Vinod, Clarissa, Nadzir, Jose, Grace, Jack, Thao, Me, and Auleep
From the left : Kristian, Vinod, Auleep,Me, Japna, Shameet, Jack, Ofeaa, Nasreen, Tze Yang, Clariss, Lara, and Johan.